Opening Up About My Self-Harm, Addiction, Depression and Suicide Attempts
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I’m back.
This video was recorded very early in the morning, just before sunrise. I wanted to speak honestly with you because many of you left comments on my last videos — some supportive, some confused, some worried. You deserve to know what has been going on in my life.
Over the past weeks I’ve been facing some very difficult moments with my mental health, my relationship with substances, and my past. For many years I used tobacco and marijuana as a way to cope with pain, grief, loneliness, and stress. At times it felt like it helped me create, relax, or escape — but over time it also made my mind more impulsive, more anxious, and more disconnected from reality.
In this video I talk about things that are not easy to share: bullying when I was younger, struggles with identity, losing my father, addiction, depression, and moments where I almost lost my life. These are parts of my story that shaped who I am today.
Right now I’m trying to change things. I’ve been sober, reflecting, and trying to rebuild my life step by step. It’s not perfect, and it’s not easy, but I want to get better. I want to live, create music, make ASMR, ride my motorcycle, and keep sharing art with all of you.
My mom came from Peru to be with me during this time, and that means more than I can explain.
To everyone who has left kind words, messages, or simply watched my videos: thank you. Your support reminds me that I’m not completely alone in this world. You are part of my journey as an artist and as a human being.
This video is not meant to glorify pain or self-destructive behavior. It’s simply an honest moment — a conversation about where I’ve been and why I’m choosing to keep going.
I love you all, and I truly want to be okay.
If you are struggling with similar feelings, please remember that reaching out for help — to friends, family, or professionals — can make a difference. You deserve support too.
If you'd like to donate to me while I'm recovering:
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/sebASMRsviii
Thanks, from the bottom of my heart, to:
Neproh ($88.88 USD), Matthew H. ($63.88 USD), Derek P. ($60.00 USD), Beth W. ($50.00 USD), Creighon J. ($30.00 USD), Eddie H. ($30.00 USD), Madison G. ($12.01 USD), Phillip M. ($10.32 USD), Letizia D. ($10.00 USD), Amandine T. ($5.54 USD)
(Updated March 9th, 2026 - 4:37 PM (-6:00 GMT))
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