ASMR hypnotic plucking, brushing and snipping away your negative energy - whispered

I've just finished working in the garden and after 8 hours of digging and shifting earth, I am barely able to construct a coherent sentence due to a lack of glucose and just an earthly desire to be cocooned by my sofa. I very rarely sit on a chair and that has been criticised by some...albeit, rather nastily. Just to paint a sort of bigger picture of me and my lifestyle...I am usually upright all day long and then when I stop...I lay down and move only for water and food and to shuffle off to my bed. Several years ago, sitting was impossible for me due to some of the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced in my life. Eventually, I had my coccyx removed...which is a rare procedure and not without its complications. I think my surgeon did maybe one a year, or less. The recovery was long (approx 18 months) and even though, several years later, I am able to sit...I still have to be very careful because some positions cause that very excruciating pain and it is not as if one can keep having bits of their spine removed. My coccyx was in hundreds of tiny pieces and I'm now wishing that I had been able to keep them and fashion them into something useful or pretty but one is not usually allowed to take home bits of their body after surgery. The point of this is that I do suffer from pain on a daily basis; it usually wakes me in the night, at least 3 times and often to the point where I will be screaming and completely stuck in one position, unable to move. I regularly dislocate one of my shoulders when I am sleeping and that is a similar kind of awful pain. Going to bed is a bit of a scary time for me. I am supposed to wear a body harness that helps to prevent me from dislocating my shoulders but getting into it is a challenge and trying to get comfortable, well, it proves very difficult. I have relented and given to taking some pain relief, just so that I can feel less sick with the pain. I was diagnosed with arthritis in my 20 and 30 years later, it often bites me when I least expect but I keep mobile because stopping is painful. Therefore, before you hit the keyboard to tell me that I should be sitting on a chair or doing x, y or z...focus on yourself and learning to be humble and kind to others. You never know the full extent of someone's life or the daily battles they might face. I do not seek sympathy for my own troubles but I do ask that you do not judge me for my choices because there is much more to this story and although I am not sharing it here...it is a reminder that we are all only human and that life is sometimes hard enough and whether we choose to sit on a chair or a floor or lay on the sofa, it is our right to do so. But this is all very positive because if there is one thing I have taken from some of my own experiences, it is that we can adapt; adopt a positive outlook, change the way we do things if something isn't working and importantly, to pluck away the negativity that others may put upon us...to leave it by the wayside and to find peace and stillness elsewhere.

Well that turned into a bit of a ramble that I wasn't planning and so I shall now just leave you to enjoy this little creation.

Perhaps if you enjoyed this, you might tickle the little like button. Although I still feel weird asking that.
With kindness always.

Annie
lover of jumping in puddles, jam and make-believe



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