asmr rambling - this video is a mess

the second part of this video is soooo irritating because i wasn't able to form my thoughts properly but as i'm uploading this i just want to add a few words to clarify the bs i'm saying. also, if you find my way of thinking too harsh, then that is fine and this advice is not applicable to you. i’m sharing this because the whole “love yourself” idea did NOTHING to improve my sense of self worth and repairing my insecurities. god bless

life keeps going, no matter what. to delude yourself means to permanently set your self up for failure and devastation when you don’t achieve something. this is what causes the devastating cycle of crippling insecurities. be realistic, and be true to yourself. this is the only way in which you’ll be able to build any meaningful relationships and experiences in your life. the world does not give a shit about you - get out of your own ass and give yourself a break.

stressing because you don’t like the way you look in your pictures and you can’t post about your night out on instagram? so then... just don’t post. no one cares and by the next day i promise you won’t care either. there'll be another occasion in a few days where i'm sure you'll take a picture of yourself that you absolutely love and won't hesitate to post. worrying about other people not being able to spend 5 seconds of their day to look at an unnatural and very curated photo of you, just to come to their own conclusion of how hot they think you are is something that should not occupy even 0.000000000001% of your brain space. post pictures because it brings you joy, and if it doesn't bring you joy and all social media does for you is encourage you to scrutinise your literal DNA - i'm begging you, get off your phone and go spend some time with a loved one. delegating so much of your energy to obsessing over things that are out of your control will feed your insecurities and deepen them. just let it go. there’s so much freedom to be found on the other side of this mentality.

some people will find you attractive, others will won't want to touch you with a ten-foot pole. some people will find you charming, others will find you off-putting. some people will think you're a great musician, but other people simply don't like the kind of music you make. in this life, you are damned if you do and you're damned if you don't. make peace with that. god bless